Blessings Always Follow

Some things in life really suck.
It's not all peaches and cream.
Which, we all know. That's no surprise.
But sometimes it hits and you're like,
where the heck did that just come from?
You know what I mean?

That hit me a little over two months ago.
For the most part, out of nowhere.
And then life got flipped upside down and inside out.
Over and over again.
So, here I am.
Two plus months later.
Digging myself out of a dark hole.

I've been M.I.A from the world,
made too good of a relationship with my room / bed,
lost contact with special people,
and embarrassingly,
 have probably been put on the "missionary list" at church.
I know, I know. That's a no bueno.

The good news is...
You can find good in every situation.
And I truly believe that.

So here I am, 
like I said,
digging myself out of this dark hole,
and guess what!
It's exciting in a weird way.
I haven't been 'myself' for a long time.
Like 2ish years a long time.
(Which my lovely momma reminded me of a few days ago)
And I get to find the old me again.
The old me, but stronger and better.

I'm starting new with SO many things,
and strengthening so many others.
Some of those, are not by choice, but that's okay.
Traditions, friends, school, my testimony.
You guys.
It's okay to have sucky lives sometimes.

Something I have really come to understand 
and love even more is this.
A lot of people say that God won't give us something we can't handle.
I used to believe that.
I used to tell people that in their times of despair.
 I changed my mind after hearing this quote a while ago,
and it came back into my life with all that's been going on.
And ya know, for the life of my I can't find or remember who 
the actual quote came from, so I will do my best to summarize it
in the best way I can.

God WILL give us more than we can handle.
He will do this because it's a reminder that we cannot 
do it alone. He will always be right there, ready for us to ask
for help. So, as many say that we will never receive trials we cannot
handle, I believe that we will never receive trials we cannot handle alone.
We can, however, overcome them with the help of our dear Savior.

Seriously. What a blessing it is to have the gospel in my life.
The past two months have really shook me and strengthened me.
My testimony of the atonement has been fed,
my desire to increase my knowledge has grown,
and my love for the Savior has become deeper then ever before.

Sometimes we don't understand why things happen,
or what we will gain from going through them.
But there is always good to be found.

Physically, I may be the loneliest I've ever been.
But spiritually, I've got more than I've ever had before.

I got a letter a few days back from a lifetime best friend of mine.
He is currently serving an LDS Mission in New Jersey, headed to Brazil in 4 days!
He encouraged me to read the talk by Elder Jeffrey R. Holland called 
"An High Priest of Good Things to Come"
You can read it HERE.
I encourage everyone to read this when they are feeling
lonely, hopeless, lost, or afraid.
It will give you the little extra push you need.

"My declaration is that this is precisely what
 the gospel of Jesus Christ offers us, especially in times of need.
 There is help. There is happiness. There really is light at the end of the tunnel. 
It is the Light of the World, the Bright and Morning Star, 
the "light that is endless, that can never be darkened." it is the very Son of God Himself. 
In loving praise far beyond Romeo's reach, we say,
 "What light through yonder window breaks" 
It is the return of hope, and Jesus is the Sun. To any who may be struggling to 
see that light and find that hope, I say: Hold on. Keep trying. God loves you. Things will improve.
 Christ comes to you in His "more excellent ministry" with a future of "better promises." 
He is your "high priest of good things to come."

This talk hit me so hard, and hit so close to home.
Thank heavens for missionaries... they always know what to say!

In the past two months
my heart has been broken,
my friends have changed,
I've accidentally pushed people away,
and my siblings have become the biggest blessing
in the whole wide world.

I have been lost, confused, sad, and angry,
but always comforted, and never left alone.
I couldn't be more grateful for my Savior and the scriptures.
My brother and I's New Years Resolution (found here),
has been a huge thing for me.
It has brought me life, and slowly started to heal my heart.

I have the greatest family in the world.
Grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, parents, siblings..
And I have come to know that they are
truly all that matter.
Friends will come and go, but family is here forever.
Each with words of encouragement, open arms, 
and every confidence of hope.

I don't write this post to be negative, 
to complain, or to gain sympothy,
because that's definitely not what I want.
I write it in hopes that I can 
be understood.
That maybe, someone reading this
will be touched, and helped
through their trials.

Bad things happen, but blessings always follow.


  1. We love you Lexa!!! Keep your chin up and keep being the wonderful person that you are =)
    Love ,

    1. I love you guys so much!! thanks for everything. You guys are the best.

  2. this is great! I love the message!

    1. Thank you!! Love your blog by the way!

  3. Your strength and wisdom inspire me constantly... We are all so blessed to have you in our midst. Love you!

  4. this is so beautifully written. we can do anything with the Savior!! xoxo

  5. this is amazing! I love your insight, so grateful to have the savior in our lives!

  6. I have got to say that you are an amazing individual for looking at the bright side of things. It sounds like you've been through SO much and I really love the way you turn it around to a lesson that can be learned. I'm grateful for this post. Thank you.

  7. thank you x1000 for this post. "its okay to have sucky lives sometimes" haha nailed it. this is lovely.